Just let me go

Have just read through some of the past entries and it's quite clear I can't handle this, just being with you on the side and you're not really in my life, just an ancillary part of it. I cannot handle this. I also cannot find it in myself to tell you to your face - I love you and when we are together I just want to pretend that we are always together, and not think about the future.

If you really love me, just walk away from me and let me bleed out and then get better. This is killing me.